Perfectly Imperfect

Happy New Year!

Last year when I kicked off 2012 I said I wasn’t going to make New Years Resolutions rather I was going to make a “Commitment List”.

It was very ambitious: Blog weekly, wake up at 6:15am. on Wednesdays, go to boot camp 3 times/week, pray and journal every night, only spend 1hr on Facebook a day and go out to eat ONCE a week.

I kept this up for 3 weeks and after that all bets were off! It was clear I had commitment issues. I initially started to beat myself up about what a failure I was for not being able to discipline myself to stick with "the list". 


Then I realized I was setting myself up to fail with the strict commitments I was placing upon myself. I was trying to be perfect and prove something but it just wasn’t realistic.  I really should have known better.

Truth is we are all human -- flawed and imperfect in many ways.

I’ve learned it’s important to know your flaws and learn how to work around them. Personally, I'm not good at sticking to routines, I don't like rules and I have always had a tendency to rebel. Occasionally I win in the self control battle, other times I fail, sometimes miserably. So instead of trying to change myself into a more "perfect" version of me, I learned to embrace my imperfections and not hold myself in judgment behind my “less than perfect” track record.  If I don’t follow in the perfect path that someone thinks I should, I will not be making any apologies. I am unique and one of a kind, imperfections and all and my only goal is to be the best ME I can be!

So, am I saying we shouldn’t discipline ourselves, exercise self control or set goals? Not at all.
I have goals, a vision board and daily affirmations. I am still committed to progression in my health, spiritual, work and love life. Though in 2013 and beyond,  I vow to flow with the current and seasons of life, say goodbye to guilt and keep pushing until I reach my goals, no matter how long it takes.